The One Where I Left Facebook

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On January 17th, I clicked through multiple prompts meant to induce guilt and hesitation, and deactivated my Facebook account. I’d been thinking about it for a few months, but always talked myself out of it. How would I keep up with my friends and family halfway around the world? How would I know about events […]

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The One With The Crab Mentality

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I’m a self-identified xennial, but in spite of being a bit of a late bloomer, I still consider myself fairly savvy where social media trends are concerned. I can meme like a pro, and I speak gifs like they’re my native language. Every once in a a while, however, a “thing” comes around that has me […]

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The One With The Intro

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Last night, I stayed awake until 4 a.m., working. Then I stayed awake until 5:32 a.m., the baby asleep in the infant jogger instead of on top of me, and the emptiness of my arms, the open space on top of my chest, feels so alien that I can’t settle down. We all stay up […]

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The One With The Autism Diagnosis

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Dear Son, I have been waiting for this nondescript envelope for weeks, checking the mailbox Monday through Saturday with a little catch in my throat as the door dropped open, momentary disappointment when it failed to appear. And then today, finally, it arrived. It took all I had to not throw the car in park […]

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The One Where You’re Not Alone


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There are over 7 billion of us humans here on Earth, but how often do we feel as though we are entirely alone? Right now, I am sitting on my comfortable couch in my second favorite room of the house, and it’s the kind of grey misty day I love, and it’s an unbelievably cool […]

July 8, 2014

The One With My Truth


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Roland let me die. That is the truth. I still love him. That is the truth. When is a door not a door? When it’s a jar, and that is the truth. Blaine is the truth. Blaine is the truth. What has four wheels and flies? A garbage truck, and that is the truth. Blaine […]

April 22, 2014

The One With All The Somewheres


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So here you are. 6:34 a.m., reading important emails in the bathroom, birds chirp-chirping outside the window, waking up with the world. No. Wait. Here you are. 12:48 p.m., waiting for the eggs to reach room temperature, wondering how you’re going to keep these impossible ants out of the cake batter when you’re not looking, […]

April 15, 2014

The One About Not Giving Too Much Away


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In sixth grade, I suddenly found myself the third F in a trio of BFF. Amy and Danielle were lithe, pretty, blonde, popular; they were cheerleaders and safety guards, wore Guess jeans in the perfect shade of acid wash, and though I couldn’t understand their newfound interest in me, I accepted it with the embarrassing […]

March 26, 2014

The One Where I Write To My Kids About Dying


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Here’s the thing, kids: I’m not afraid to die, but I’m afraid of leaving you. And I’m not afraid to talk about it, but I am afraid to write it all down — there’s a deeply primitive part of me that fears putting pen to paper will usher in everything I’m frightened of, a strangely […]

March 13, 2014