The One Where I Left Facebook


On January 17th, I clicked through multiple prompts meant to induce guilt and hesitation, and deactivated my Facebook account. I’d been thinking about it for a few months, but always talked myself out of it. How would I keep up with my friends and family halfway around the world? How would I know about events […]

June 5, 2018

The One With The Crab Mentality


I’m a self-identified xennial, but in spite of being a bit of a late bloomer, I still consider myself fairly savvy where social media trends are concerned. I can meme like a pro, and I speak gifs like they’re my native language. Every once in a a while, however, a “thing” comes around that has me […]

August 1, 2017

The One With The Intro


Last night, I stayed awake until 4 a.m., working. Then I stayed awake until 5:32 a.m., the baby asleep in the infant jogger instead of on top of me, and the emptiness of my arms, the open space on top of my chest, feels so alien that I can’t settle down. We all stay up […]

June 23, 2017

The One With The Autism Diagnosis


Dear Son, I have been waiting for this nondescript envelope for weeks, checking the mailbox Monday through Saturday with a little catch in my throat as the door dropped open, momentary disappointment when it failed to appear. And then today, finally, it arrived. It took all I had to not throw the car in park […]

May 18, 2016

The One About Good Men


I love men. I have had good men in my life. I have good men in my life. Men as deep and open as the ocean floor, their strength sanding my rough edges. Men so warm and golden that lying beside them was like bedding the slow rising sun as it creeps over the horizon. […]

February 26, 2016

The One With The Second Suspected Miscarriage


Six years ago, I had a miscarriage that rocked my world with the simple, straightforward grief of it. The unexpected loss of potential we were only just beginning to process. The depth of feeling for this being who was barely bigger than a grain of rice. The ocean of tears I cried every night for […]

October 23, 2015

The One With The Ways You’re Doing Fine


love is the voice under all silences, the hope which has no opposite in fear; the strength so strong mere force is feebleness: the truth more first than sun more last than star -e.e. cummings __ Maybe you’re reading this and it’s three a.m. and you just got the baby back to sleep again, and […]

September 27, 2014

The One Where I Look Like My Mom


When I got my two year old out of the shower this morning, her teeth were chattering with cold. Once I had her dressed, I wrapped her up in the big blue blanket. She let me hold her there for five minutes or so, not moving, not talking, just looking up at me with the […]

September 21, 2014

The One Where You’re Not Alone


There are over 7 billion of us humans here on Earth, but how often do we feel as though we are entirely alone? Right now, I am sitting on my comfortable couch in my second favorite room of the house, and it’s the kind of grey misty day I love, and it’s an unbelievably cool […]

July 8, 2014

The One With My Truth


Roland let me die. That is the truth. I still love him. That is the truth. When is a door not a door? When it’s a jar, and that is the truth. Blaine is the truth. Blaine is the truth. What has four wheels and flies? A garbage truck, and that is the truth. Blaine […]

April 22, 2014